Words meant to be unread...

What do you say to someone who holds your heart and doesn't even want it? How am I suppose to react to someone saying they want me and care when all I know is rejection and pain? When does the pain end and happiness begin again? So many questions in life and too few answers. I want to scream! I want to shake you! I want answers!! I want to know what I did to deserve this! You were (scratch that) ARE my life. I gave you all of me. Every ounce of sanity my body and mind held within. I gave you every drop of love my heart held. I wasn't the best at showing you but, the truth is...I don't know how to live without you. There have been so many wrong things done and said to and between us. We are like scared kids who are lost. Not knowing which way to turn and scared if we separate from one another neither of us may make it out alive. So much has been talked about but, the truth is we still don't know how each other feels. We do however know each other. We know something is causing us both a need to hold on. To not let go. Not fully. We have touched a place in one another hearts and minds that we feel no one else can find. If they did find that place would we welcome another in with open arms? How do I fall into someone Else's arms when yours is all I want and know? Love is the easiest thing to give to someone. It comes at no cost but, as we both know no guarantees either. Love isn't always equal. You can love someone so much yet, get nothing in return. It can make you crazy. I never meant to hurt you, scare you, or abandon you. You are not yesterday's newspaper. You are me, my life, my kids father, my best friend, my lover, my partner, my confidence, my mind, you Kayce are my soul. That little flame that flickers within and keeps me going. You keep my heart beating. I know that because, when I'm around you my heart pounds. I feel like it is going to beat out of my chest. I can feel blood pumping through my veins, I can breathe. I don't want to hurt you, I'm just scared to lose you. To wonder into the unknown. Where nothing is promised and promises don't mean a thing. I love you. Not for any other reason than my heart says so!