Goodbye Lover...

Today, just now I tucked you in and kissed your forehead for the last time. For you no longer want that from me. My arms are no longer your comfort, my heart no longer your shelter. My eyes are no longer a crystal ball....you no longer see your future, your forever in them. I can ask myself why...or I can accept and move on. I will forever have a reserve in my heart for you. May you always be welcome in my arms. May you always know that I love you...even when the universe comes crashing down and you are alone...know that you have me. You have my arms, my heart, my soul to comfort you. I will always be here. I know you more than I did....maybe I knew you and just didn't take them time to show you. Maybe I was scared to love so strong. I didn't intend on pushing you away...that is the one thing I wanted to avoid. Instead, I let my selfishness stand in the way and I lost you. Will I be okay? I don't know. But I set your free. I set you free of having to love me, care for me, be there when you are needed. I release you into the great unknown and wish you nothing but love and happiness. But I will always be here...in the shadows of this dark, unruly world you have left me in. I stand alone hoping, praying, that one day you will extend an arm and pull me out. That you will grab me...breathe life back into my limb, cold, lonely capsule that holds nothing but regret, unwanted feelings, and remorse of yesterdays. For I know that you will see that my love, my arms, my heart, my eyes are your comfort, your shelter, your crystal ball. Your future. Until then I leave you lying there. Tucked under the covers...safe, warm, unknowing of what tomorrow holds. Until then I will wait in the shadows of my dark, unruly world. Goodbye Lover...