Honest Eyes

I lie there...scared and unknowing of what will happen next. I feel you breathing on my neck. I hear words in my ear but, I'm not sure what you are saying. I feel your hands. They are rough from a hard day's work. They are tracing every inch of my body. It feels good. I feel your body shifting on top of mine. My eyes are closed...my mind is a cluster. I trust you...I want to trust you! I feel your lips touch mine. They are chapped....rough. I open my eyes. You are looking at me. Your eyes are gorgeous...blue...and none the less honest. Make me trust you. Help me to let go. To lose myself in you. I feel your hand slide down my leg then back up. I feel you reaching for the button to my pants. You are going so slow but, my mind and heart are racing. You slowly unbutton them. Your eyes still fixed to mine. I take in your smell, your touch, your love. I feel you slide inside my pants. I can feel how hot I am compared to your hand. I feel you touching me. I feel your other hand reaching behind me. Unsnapping my bra. Your one free hand raising my shirt. Still your eyes are fixed to mine. They are honest. I see you slowly move your mouth to my nipple. Still you are looking directly at me...I see your eyes. I hear you whisper, "trust me baby." I want to...I do...I want to. I think to myself, "Please God let me trust her." You slowly slide my pants off...next my panties. They are soaked from your touch. You look at me the entire time. Your eyes are honest. I feel your body moving down. What are you doing? Where are you going? I need you here. Until I feel your soft tongue against my hot, wet, flesh. Still your eyes are on me. They haven't left mine. You start slow. I feel your lips kiss me...your tongue slowly sliding up and down. You make me feel amazing. I close my eyes. I put my hand against the back of your head, the other touches your hand that is wrapped around my thigh. I want to show you how good you are making me feel. I squirm and press against your head harder, I squeeze your hand. You give me a huge release but, now what? I feel you slowly climb back up my body. I feel your hands. You are looking at me. Your eyes are honest. I watch as your hand slowly slides into your boxers. What is she doing? Terrified! She is going where not many have and I am scared. I see you slowly pull out what I had known was coming. Still you are looking directly at me. I feel it against me. Rubbing up and down. Getting nice and wet for what I hope will be an intoxicating entry. I feel you push inside of me. Every inch of you. It feels amazing. I feel your hands planted around the top of my thigh. You are slow. You are looking right into my eyes. Your eyes are honest. I trust you! I know you love me and I trust you! Make me feel better. I trust you...please make me feel better. 

Afterward I lay there on your chest. I can smell the smoke of a burning cigarette. I can feel your chest rising. I can hear your heart beat. I look at you. You are looking at me. Your honest eyes never left mine.